Fuck

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I need sleep and more hours in the day. 

My baby

She really is such a good girl. I'm a lucky mom. She makes me so proud. She's magic. 

Still sick

Still sick

Still can't hear.

Happy.

When you think you know

But you have no damn clue. 

Shit changes.

Never give up.

Just don't give up. On your each other, on yourself, on your dreams, just don't. Shit changes in half of a second and you have to be ok. You have to know it will be ok. 

When that one song is forever saving the day

No masters or kings when the ritual begins
There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin
In the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene
Only then I am human
Only then I am clean

Check in

I'm pretty sure I'm never kicking this cold. Fuck my shit ass immune system. It would help if I didn't work like a mad women, but eh. You do what you must. It would help if I got one solid night sleep. It's been so long. It would help if I wasn't dwelling on my hearing, or lack there of. Cheers to another Monday down, I hope all of yours were well caffeinated and quick. 

Never sleep

It's been over a month since I have slept through the night. I wake up so many times its worse than having to be and down with a newborn. It's a solid 5 or more a night. I have no clue why. I assume stress. At first I thought it was this awful cold that I am JUST starting to get to end of, but I don't think that's it. I'm dreaming..some I remember, most i don't. But i do feel panic and on the verge of tears most times I wake up. The dreams j do remember I look up the dream interpretations of. Most point to stress, emotional worry, ect. Anyways...here's a pic dump.